The merge is here! I am so happy! This game is finally starting to get into the swing of things. I apologize for how lackluster this confessional is about to be. I had like over 3000 words of confessional and then it just went poof and I actually cried and am such a loser so here goes round 2.
I am pissed that Bill left, but honestly that boy played himself right out of the game by not talking to people enough. I tried coaching him, but he obviously didn’t listen enough and make the effort. However, one good thing did come out of that tribal: the Julie vs. Cole feud. Holy moly, I came in late and I missed out on so much. That was the most intense fight and I was excited and happy and just craving more the whole time.
Here’s a quick rundown of the people left in the game and Kim’s very own power rankings of them minus the ranking part:
Jonas - This guy is too nice to win this game. I think he can make a move, but I doubt he will ever be able to vote out one of his close allies and I think that could detriment his game going forward if he can’t learn to become more fluid. With that said, he’s a great guy and so if he did make it to the end, he could win on likeability alone.
Julie - This girl is VOLATILE and I don’t know what to do with her. She is putting the target on her back, but at the same time is creating such good dramatic situations that are pulling the target off of me and everyone else so I kind of want her to stay. Right now, I’m just trying to be there for her and be the shoulder to vent on since if she goes home, I want her lasting impression of me to be good so she’d vote for me in a jury vote.
Patrick - This guy went from huge threat who was openly visible to hiding in the bushes to the point where I forgot he was still in the game. I don’t know what game he’s trying to play, but maybe he’s trying to dissociate from Cole. I honestly have no idea, but I haven’t forgotten how paranoid and savvy of a player he really is. Also, I realized that Patrick telling Cole and Simone that I had an idol was just another tribunal task and I don’t know how I didn’t realize that right away. That makes me feel a little better, but I was still the blunt of the mission, so I’m not entirely good with that either.
Christina - I still stand by what I’ve been saying the whole time that this girl is playing and she’s playing hard. I think she will do whatever it takes to stay in this game. I think she would cut my head off and screw me over if it meant it would help her stay. I plan to stay as close to her as I can to know exactly what is going on in her head and keep tabs on what this girl is gonna do next.
Roark - Thank goodness for Roark and her immunity. I didn’t even think we connected all that well and I was just being myself, but obviously, this goes to show how important the social game really is and how it can really move you forward in the game. Simone has been pushing how she wants Roark to go, but I think Simone’s just jealous that Roark picked me to have immunity over her.
Ali - She is Christina’s pawn right now and I’m mad because I just lost mine so I’m losing the battle here. She will probably do whatever Christina tells her to. However, she’s a perfect person to have at the end since no one will vote for her. If Christina somehow did go home, Ali is gonna need another person to latch on to. Who better than me ;)
Matt - I want Matt gone next. I connect with him the least and I think that since he has no allegiances, he’s a perfect scapegoat like Roark...except I like Roark better and I think she’s more vital to my game from here on out. Christina mentioned he might have an idol so there’s always that, but I’m not too worried about it. I feel like the inactive vs active debate is over now that everyone is mostly active, but maybe I can milk it a little longer since Matt is not around all that much.
Ryan - I connect with this dude a lot and everyone was saying he was worse than Ali, but I find that not true whatsoever. Maybe it’s because we’re both accounting majors, but I connect with him a lot! He seems open to working with new people so he could be a great asset to my game moving forward. However, Roark did give him immunity so maybe he’s not getting the credit he deserves from people.
Chrissy - I don’t really have a read on her gameplay yet, but we connected really well just like I did with Ryan. We have a lot of similarities and I like her. I talked with her for awhile about cheese curds and how where I’m from (Wisconsin), cheese is worshipped and people don’t understand. Here’s a little culture for those of you who aren’t familiar with the greatness of Wisconsin:
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I’m glad you all can share in the hype that is Culver’s now. Look it up, it’s an amazing place, believe me.
Leif - I have no idea what happened with Leif. I do not connect with him nearly as much as I used to and I don’t know why I feel that way. It’s hard because I was so close with him. I still trust him, but my stronger allegiances lie elsewhere. I think he’s not as savvy as I originally wanted him to be, but maybe I’m underestimating him. I hope he’s still got game left in him that he wants to play with me because I love the guy.
Cole - Boi oh boi what can I even say. This guy is digging a hole straight to the core of the earth. Every move he is making is putting him in a worse position. However, he was my number one threat and rival so this is perfect for me. The duo of him and Patrick were numero uno and dos on my hitlist so one of them tanking their own game is helping me tremendously. I have been telling him whatever he wants to hear just so he knows I’m here for him. I want every jury vote I can get and if he’s going soon, I’m gonna schmooze him up on his way out the door. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not giving him false hope that he’s fine, but I’m acting like I’m there for him in case he doesn’t go home and so I won’t be his target if he does somehow have an idol.
Simone - NUMBER ONE THREAT IN THE GAME OVERALL. Y’all this woman is going to win this game if people don’t do something about it. One day, Christina is saying how she doesn’t even connect with Simone all that much and then 12 hours later, Christina is telling me how Simone is the GREATEST and most amazing person. She has the social game down. She has the physical game down. She has the strategic game down. Keep your friends close and your enemies closer yah well I’m as tight knit with Simone as I can possibly get right now. The following represents my thoughts when communicating with Simone:
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I think she is low-key running this game. The problem with her is that she is playing MY game right now. She’s literally stealing my allies from me one by one and if I don’t do something about her soon enough, it will be my own downfall. The fact that she wants Roark gone is exactly the reason I don’t want Roark gone. I will play dumb for now and be her ride or die, but I am not going to the end with this beast of a player. It’s either eat or be eaten and I’m feeling pretty hungry right now.
I see a couple different groups of people right now:
Ali/Christina
Jonas/Leif/Julie
Ryan/Chrissy
Patrick/Cole/Simone
Roark and Matt are outliers
I believe the Ryan/Chrissy duo will team up with the Jonas/Leif/Julie trio to form a steady alliance. However, that is a big group and I do not want them dominating this game. I could very well see Ali/Christina teaming up with Simone who is looking out for Patrick/Cole so there’s the other side. That leaves Roark/Matt/me in the middle. I want the middle to myself so that’s why i want Matt gone. Ryan/Simone/Patrick/Jonas/Christina are all talking about how they want to each individually play the middle with me when in reality, they have their allegiances and I see them going to one side way over the other. I’m really neutral on who I want to align with and I’ll do what’s best for my game in the moment.
As for the Julie vs. Cole feud...I want both of them to stay in this game for at least a couple more votes because that keeps the heat off of me. They are prime meat shields for everyone and I think I can convince people to realize that. With that said, I am so disappointed with Cole. I know Julie can exaggerate, but if what she says is true, Cole is actually a horrible person. Julie confided in me about her childhood growing up and how she doesn’t even talk with her mom anymore because of personal reasons that I will not share here. What Cole said reminded Julie of her past and it’s not a bright thing. I have NO TOLERANCE whatsoever for people who get personal in a game. No matter what happens, Cole has NO right to call Julie out on a personal basis. I know what it’s like to quickly and suddenly feel alone. My dad is going to die soon from a disease that none of us even suspected. I know exactly what it feels like to lose family and how much it can tear you apart inside. No one should ever have to go through the loss of some of the most important people in your life. I am NOT going to just be a bystander and let Julie get berated for things that no one should have to go through. I’ve witnessed what it’s like to feel alone and I empathize with Julie more than anyone probably imagines. Julie can be obnoxious and she brings a lot of this stuff onto herself. With that said, Cole crossed a line. Karma is a bitch and her name is Kim.
I’ve been hearing rumors about how Chrissy was the hinky vote for Cole and how Cole messaged Chrissy with a nasty message saying she’s a snake and Chrissy is denying it saying she didn’t vote for him. Cole came at her life saying if she didn’t then who did. SURPRISE MOTHERFUCKERS IT ME. Cole’s a lying piece of scum trash who is getting what is coming to him. I knew that no one would question my loyalty and think that I voted for Cole; even Cole trusts me not to have voted for him. I knew that he wouldn’t expect it was me, but I also knew that he would be too proud to not drop it and would try to sniff out who that extra vote was from. Sorry Chrissy, you just happened to fall into my trap. Fuck Cole, this is what he deserves. This is just the tip of what I’m capable of if you get on my bad side. I usually don’t let my emotion cloud my game, but I can make exceptions. Now Chrissy and Cole don’t trust each other and thus their allies will not be able to work together as easily anymore either. BINGO, that’s exactly the plan. I’m not going to sit here and let people ride to the end easily. If you wanna make it to the end, you’re gonna have to work hard. I’m a one-woman wrecking ball. Either hop on or get out of my way. I’m gonna do whatever I gotta do to win and tear people apart. I want to sew distrust into the souls of my enemies. One moment I’m a hero. The next I’m a villain. Learn to adapt. Adapting in this game is how you will move forward. If you can’t do that, you will get eaten alive.
Spradlin Out
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