I AM A DEADBEAT LOSER FOR NOT POSTING IN FOREVER BUT HERE I AM! [To be fair, I had three tests this past week]
So much has changed since the last time I posted. I left off before the Ali vote where we were going to try to go after Christina. However, people got paranoid (as always) and Patrick said he felt A LOT more comfortable voting for Ali instead of splitting Ali/Christina since his name was on the line. Of course being his close ally, I respected that wish which was STUPID because Christina did not play her idol that vote. However, thankfully I had immunity so there was no way I was going home that round.
Also, FUCK Joaquin I don't like his attitude and I was not going to respond to his post in my confessional. You call me a pussy you don't deserve to hear what I have to say about the game. Honestly, that is a personal insult and he deserves to be removed from the game as a host for that. Bye bye losa see ya in all-stars when I blindside yo ass. Also, way to ask me a question about my alias. I didn't fecking pick Kim Jeff assigned her to me I can't help that I am representing the only character in this game who has won in the show. Cole comes up to me saying how it was such an interesting question ugh.
Then comes the next round and turns out Leif was removed from the game. Honestly, I'm okay with that because I think he still respects me and so if he somehow makes a reappearance at the finale, I think I might be able to get his vote. This challenge was the absolutely worst challenge omg I usually always win them, but somehow Matt came out of nowhere and beat me (granted I did the entire challenge on my phone and still got 2nd after a tiebreaker). I honestly had no idea that everyone knew I was this 'big' threat who was 'running the game' and going to win. For one, I am happy that people see me this way because even if people are doing things behind the scenes other than me, I am the one who is publically running this game and perception is reality in the jury's eyes a lot of the time.
Now that I know I am seen as a big threat by everyone, I've been covering my butt hard. I talked to Ryan for almost 3 hours the other night and he is so great and we get along so naturally we would probably be friends outside the game. With that said, I know he thinks I'm a big threat so he will have to go eventually and I honestly believe he has a chance of winning since he didn't even backstab and vote out half the people on the jury. I love how the people who I perceive as my greatest enemies end up being the people I'm closest to (First Cole, now Ryan, probably Christina). I think that says something about my social game where I can backstab these people and then continue to be friends with them afterwards.
Anyways, next vote we were splitting between Julie and Christina. BUT THEN PEOPLE GET PARANOID AGAIN because they're all dumb and don't know how to stick to the plan. Everyone ends up voting Julie because Roark had to go and spill the beans about the split vote to Christina. And Christina ends up not playing her idol(s) again because that girl has the biggest balls out of anyone here (including the people who actually physically have balls - looking at you Patrick, Ryan, Cole).
For this vote, it's looking like there's a dilemma over whether to split the votes again or to just all vote Roark. Simone wants to just all vote Roark which I think is stupid since Christina has a bunch of idols she's throwing around like she's some flower girl at a wedding. I do think Christina will play an idol tonight, but I will not be damned if she doesn't. If this girl makes it to the end of the game, she has my vote. She will win without anyone else even having a chance. I think she is actually perfect for my game though because right now she is seen as this huge threat and is covering my ass because of it. Also, people think I am the best bet to beat her in immunity and so they need me to stick around.
I tricked Christina too lmao. She has been calling me out about having an idol so I went right up to her and said who the fuck you think you are Honey Booboo I don't have no idol and stop trying to cover your own ass since we all know you have more than one. Then we bantered a bit and finally she says "oh so did you get into the thread and find that the idol was missing?" BINGO BITCH I already clarified with Jeff that once someone makes it into the thread, the password changes so if Christina made it in, she has the idol. FOOLED YA! Now Cole says she is going around saying she has two lol.
My ideal situation is getting out Christina, Matt, and Roark next preferably with Christina being out at Final 6 so the threat stays off of me for awhile. Roark is no longer my ride or die since she knows she's a goat right now and is looking to improve her resume. I honestly believe I could beat Patrick and Simone in the finals. Cole I think has a case for making a lot of moves and I think he could pull through if it came down to it. If I'm in the final 3 with two original Bambarun, I think I have an advantage since a lot of the jury is currently original Natyaya. If Christina leaves, I will be the only original Natyaya left. I think I could make a case for that (being able to come from the bottom and make allies with the other tribe in order to further myself).
Honestly, I started playing this game to have fun and I've accomplished that. I feel so much better than when I began this game and I feel so alive. Would I love to win? FUCK YAH, but if I don't win, I'm not gonna cry it's not the end of the world. However, in the last three games I have played, I have gotten fifth place. Right now, it's very possible it happens for a fourth time in a row. That is the only way I will be pissed. If I get anything but fifth, I'll be okay. Sometimes, people get too invested in this game and it eats them alive. It's not healthy to do that. Playing the real version of Survivor would eat so many people alive because it brings out the worst in you. Learning to tame the beast inside you is how you win. Letting the beast out of its cage is a surefire way to lose.
Spradlin Out
